"But we never conjured spirits"

Betty needs to wake up soon or else the entire town is going to be talking witchcraft. Reverend Parris will believe what I told him only for a little bit longer but soon enough the story will get out. I only admitted to the dancing hoping that it is all that he saw. He claims of seeing some of the other girls naked in the forest but that I denied. I scared the rest of the girls, who were seen in the forest, into keeping their mouths shut about what happened out there. They better not speak a word of the truth to anyone or else I'll kill them! It is my life that will be taken for lying and breaking the rules, should the truth get out. My name cannot be blackened anymore than it already has been. John is the only outsider who knows the whole truth but he would never tell another soul. He would not do anything to hurt me, he loves me. He stopped by today to find out what was going on and we talked. He says to forget about us being together and that he will not be comin' for me more. He is surely sportin' with me. I remember the times that we were together and how we both felt. I'll wait for him and he will surely come for me again.

"I made a gift for you today, Goody Proctor"

I will deal with the pain and suffering from this wound as long as I know that Goody Proctor will get put on trial for it. If only Mary Warren knew that I was watching her as she knit that small poppet to take home as a gift to Goody Proctor. Sitting in court the plan just developed in my head and Mary Warren so oblivious to what was about to happen. I have all the court believing that her spirit was sent upon me and forced the needle into my stomach. I can just be the little poppet master to the entire town with the lies that I tell to cover my tracks. She will get what she deserves. Putting me out of work and taking John from me; she deserves every bit of suffering she has coming for her. Mary Warren would not dare tell on me either. She will easily be persuaded to think that the needle was not stuck in the poppet's stomach for keeping. She will be too confused by all the chaos and questions to give a statement going against me. Goody Proctor will be tried, and hung whether I must do more than just this little scheme I pulled tonight.

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"And if she tell me, child, it were for harlotry, may God spread His mercy on you!"

In court today Judge Danfourth asked me if John's confession to committing lechery was true. I could not answer it with truth. I could barely come up with any words at all. I just wanted to run out of the court room before anything could get worse; run from this town and have John at my side again. I do not understand why he would confess such a thing to the court, or to anyone for that matter. What was he trying to get away from? He never loved Goody Proctor. He did not confess his sins for her! Does he not know that breaking a commandment is an ultimate sin, which has a sentence of hanging? I wish John had just let it be so that he would not be in that cell right now. We were meant for each other, he must know that. I feel it in my heart, I know it is true. I drank that blood and made my wish that day we danced in the forest. I wished we would be together. Goody Proctor should be the only one dying, not my John. I would not have told such a lie to begin with had I known it would lose me the one thing I had been waiting for. We will be together one day. I'll find a way to make it happen.